I want to kill myself.

Nothing stopping me anymore. 

Anonymous asked: i'm sorry if i sound pathetic, i'm only asking because you seem like an honest girl, and i'm going to have sex with my boyfriend for the first time and i'm really scared if it's going to hurt? or if it's going to be embarrassing? what do i do?

You don’t sound pathetic! If you’re this worried about having sex, are you 100% sure you’re ready? I think you need to have this conversation with your boyfriend first. Sex is different for everyone; it was very painful for me first time round, but I know people who said it didn’t hurt at all. It’s not embarrassing at all to share love with someone that you do love. It will come to you, you’ll know what to do. Talk to your boyfriend, make sure you’re certain on what you’re doing. Good luck sweetie x x 

Anonymous asked: have you lost your virginity?X

yes, i have x

I think it’s really sad to think about all those people, lying dead, in graves or coffins, their bare bodies, covered in scars. 

Anonymous asked: You're a beautiful girl, please stop hurting yourself. It WILL get better x

i wish, with everything i have, i could believe this

I can’t take telling people I’m fine anymore, I’m not, I’m really not.

I am not getting better.

I am getting worse.

I am getting bad again infront of everyone, I am literally falling apart to the point I hack at my skin every single night, so much it’s fallen into routine, my skin is constantly red raw, my skin is an absolute mess. I am an absolute mess and I have absolutely nobody to help me. I’m not even scared if I go to far anymore. I want to.

I’m so sorry.

could you do me a massive favour and follow my Instagram please x

instagram.com/laurenemross

could you do me a massive favour and follow my Instagram please x

instagram.com/laurenemross

waking up next to my boyfriend makes today slightly bearable